Long week.

I think this has been the longest week of my life. Pretty much, all of my time in the office are spent in long meetings, brainstorming, calls, giving directions to the team, and leg work. This is the time of the year when all our demands are in full swing until the closing of this year. We are at about 300++ until end of December with very aggressive timelines, and very demanding clients.

Distraction is okay. But not until I feel all the energy drain out at the end of the day. Nothing beats mental exhaustion. It drains you from the inside out. I pray for strength everyday when I wake up. Being 100% for everything that needs to be done is so important now, that I sometimes get mad at myself for not being up to par as to what is expected. I know. I am that hard on myself.

I think what I want to say is, I want to take this opportunity to step back, and look at how far I have gone from that fateful day that changed everything. The promise I will make for myself is that I will still try hard, press on but I will never miss a beat of what my heart tells me to feel everyday. If I am okay, I will thank God for that day, same thing if I am sad, lonely, angry, and if I am missing you more.

I hope you and I will both come out of this as better versions of ourselves more than what we want us to be. I pray for the both us, pray hard because I know in my heart of hearts that I am having a hard time focusing my eyes on God for direction as of now.

Days will be long, nights will be longer and the only option we have is to just look ahead for better days.

Brunch: Corned Beef Mash

I saw this recipe in Jenni Epperson's blog, and I immediately wanted to try it. As her, I always want to cook food with ingredients that are readily available in our fridge and pantry. I'm a fan of no fuss cooking so to speak. So for today's brunch kitchen experiment, I did her recipe. 

Ingredients:
3 potatoes boiled
3 cans corned beef
garlic, onion, red bell pepper, green chili
salt and pepper
1 tbsp butter
1/2 cup milk
1 egg
1/2 cup flour
oil for frying

Instructions:
1. Boil the potatoes until they're cooked. 














2. While doing that, cook your corned beef as you want to cook it. What I did, is cooked it the way we usually do, saute it in garlic, onions and for color, I added the chilis and pepper. Add salt and pepper to taste.

3. Multitask! As you are cooking the corned beef, mash the potatoes and mix in milk and butter. Make sure that there's no lumps or big chunks of potato for a better consistency.
 

4. Mix in the mash potatoes into the cooked corned beef. I added 1 egg and flour to make sure that everything sticks when you fry them. Mix thoroughly.
5. Heat oil in pan. I only added a small amount of oil, since I know, that corned beef is already oily. 
6. Form a patty and fry until golden brown on bot sides.
7. Drain the excess oil in paper towels.

I ate mine with brown rice and tomatoes since the corned beef mash is actually pretty rich. It was hearty and very filling. Downed it with my cranberry juice. Haha, still on a healthy living mode. 

Happy tummy!

Until the next weekend kitchen experiment! 

Laters tweeps!

New book - The Perks of Being a Wallflower

I have a new book.. Again. : ) Only read a few pages of it since its really chaotic in the office because of a lot of meetings, brainstorming, reports and planning sessions. But I am determined to finish it next week. Gotta finish the book before the movie comes out. 

Well maybe later when I'm having a much needed mani/pedi while having tea.

Happy weekend everyone!

What doesn't kill you.. Makes you stronger

Read a blog post from Jenni Epperson, about the blogging rights bill mentioned by a Philippine Senator. A line struck me, "Don't play the victim, be a survivor."

We may choose to just wallow in every negative thoughts and feelings we might have, or we can choose to be a blessing or an air of positivity to others.

So, from a person who is going through a something painful and hurtful. I will choose to make amends, be in the path to forgiving oneself and others and be a blessing to others. Be they appreciate me or not.

1 week. I will count the days.

RX TMR Top 10 - What you learned from your ex...

Saw this retweet from Delamar of RX (from @cherrythegreat) on Twitter - and I agree and now understand this.

"You can't force people to stay in your life. Staying is a choice, so be thankful for people who choose you."

Between The Lines - Sara Bareilles

Time to tell me the truth
To burden your mouth for what you say
No pieces of paper in the way
Cause I can't continue pretending to choose
The opposite sides on which we fall
The loving you laters if at all
No right minds could wrong be this many times

My memory is cruel
I'm queen of attention to details
Defending intentions if he fails
Until now, he told me her name
It sounded familiar in a way
I could have sworn I'd heard him say it ten thousand times
If only I had been listening

Leave unsaid unspoken
Eyes wide shut unopened
You and me
Always between the lines
Between the lines

I thought I thought I was ready to bleed
That we'd move from the shadows on the wall
And stand in the center of it all
Too late two choices to stay or to leave
Mine was so easy to uncover
He'd already left with the other
So I've learned to listen through silence

Leave unsaid unspoken
Eyes wide shut unopened
You and me be
You and me always be

I tell myself all the words he surely meant to say
I'll talk until the conversation doesn't stay on
Wait for me I'm almost ready
When he meant let go

Leave unsaid unspoken
Eyes wide shut unopened
You and me
Always be
You and me
Always between the lines

Things are not okay... I don't want to preted that it is because it's not. As I try to look confident, the more my emotions and lack of focus betray me. I'm sorry for the red and short hair, it's not a fashion statement, it's a cry for help. Help me.

Thinking aloud

So what's wrong with blogspot? I can't seem to insert photos from this laptop. I guess, blogging is also prohibited when I'm in the office.

Darn it.

5 days.